♥ J E S S I C A

Christmas is coming

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Time has come again. Really, how stupid this might sound , or how cliche it might be, time really flies and will never stop for anyone . I've turned 18 this year, my life took a big turn. Wonder how's my life gonna be few years down the road , this time of the year really makes people joyful, sorrow and stuff like that. But it really makes me think about alot of stuff. I'm not saying that I'm not enjoying this festive holidays. Its just that it makes me ponder about alot of stuff. Apart from that I'm going to have dinner with bii's family on that day , felt pretty nervous and I'm 101% sure myself that I wont be in my usual standard ,although it's not the first time but at the same time, I know i must stay calm .

Happy Birthday To me

Friday, December 18, 2009

I wanna express my gratitude to everyone who wished me happy birthday and thanks for the wishes . I am really very happy to receive everyone's love and didn't forget about me. The cake bii baked for me is atrociously delicious , eventhough that cake is kindda smash when he's rushing to celebrate with me on time .Apart from that, I am really glad to be declared that I am offically a 18 years old girl. I hope to really grow up as a mature & responsible individual.I shall really work hard toward my goal ! Please don't treat me as a little girl anymore . Especially bii , although I am still not that old enough to be declared as a women.

boredom & day dreaming

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Knowing i am way behind time, i did some adjustment to my lifestyle. little did i realized, i had been home for consecutively twenty days or more ? literally had my eyes fixed onto the screen roughly for 15 hours a day.I know right , I'm so lifeless and I feel like a suffocated bird that always traps inside the cage. Did i mention I gains like 5kg during these semester break due to lacking of exercise ? Everyday I dream, I daze about how my life can be better if i am lighter. i wish, i pray that i could carry out my diet when the sun rise again. for my life, the most hardworking time i had was spend time in thinking how to slim down and eat lesser, avoid events that make me gobble sinful foods. no matter how much i think, it is only working out in my brain not my body . The food were simply so tasty and how could I resist the temptation not to eat? Wonder how am I going to get rid all the fats that are accumulating on my tummy and every part of my body. OMG , I'm feeling so hopeless already , boredom & day dreaming is killing me .

I'm missing you so badly ♥

Never give up

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Went to visit grandparents with bibi today and dad gave me a lecture about how things won't work and I understand he wants me to know that success only comes when you learn from your mistakes & failure.I've met with many mistakes & failure, at times I just feel like giving up so badly because of those little lecture from him and stuff that he is right about something that I'm wrong . But the thing that keeps me going is the sense of achievement and fulfillment when I'm going to these results, the hardwork that I put in and to prove him wrong for once. One thing that I am grateful that I never once give up in everything I decided do and to be success in it . At times, I feel that I've set very high expectations and when I cant fulfill it at the end of the day, I feel disappointed. But I told myself that I got to do things at my own pace and when I discovered the right path, this is when I am going to learn.
Everyone knows that a wake up call to do even better.

realistic world

Friday, December 11, 2009

A short check of my purse and it had been depleting so much that I cant help but to say that I really need considering not to spend on unnecessary things. Though I really like to shop just like any other girls, I got to restrict myself time to time.Money is not something that is drop down from the sky, you got to work hard to earn it. As I grew older, I realized that there are many things to worry about,having enough money is one issue. No money is another issue of NO MONEY NO TALK . That is how realistic the world is becoming . Having a diploma is simply not enough consider the fact there are so many private uni around in malaysia and everyone is getting a degree for the seek of getting a better pay. If you don't have a degree, you are going to lose out in this competitive world.

Forgive & Forget

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

I am feeling kind of weak now. Lots of things have been happening and it makes me feel sick inside out. I hope things turn out to be better. It comes to a point that I should make the effort to blog everyday because everytime when i want to blog about my happenings, i always tend to forget what i wanted to said and it always happened again & again. I shouldn't elaborate further and I just hope that you'll be fine no matter how life becomes.
you're a big impact to me and i was crying out in pain , I guess you wouldn't even bother about how I feel ? where were you when I needed you the most ? I'm sick of those excuses from you . Forgive & forget ? If that is going to happen everytime a person did something wrong,must i just forget the past and forgive the person and look positive ?
he/she can make the 1st mistake,2nd mistake,3rd mistake without knowing what is really wrong with him/her
Isn't he/she taking things for granted?
By telling the person will not make any difference because the same thing will happen again.
If the person can give 101 excuses about his/her wrong doings so does it mean he/she can be trusted? So it is for you to find out and for you to believe.
The word "I love you" don't mean anything to me
I am frank with the words i say. Don't like it so be it.
I am just being truthful but you have your 101 lame excuses & reasons.
People like you do things with regrets, without thinking the rights and wrongs. Its just a minute of fun, a period of sweetness and a lifetime hurts.