♥ J E S S I C A

contented with what we have

Monday, October 26, 2009

Would we ever be contented with our life?I guess it is human's nature to be greedy and wanting more. Like how money is never enough and how women always wants to be thinner and hot .But as I go through this journey of life, I hope I could be content with what I have eventhough I'm always whinning about money is always insufficient and how I wish that money would just drop down from sky so that I could buy anything I want , or maybe owning a machine that creates money like how that machine rains food in '' Cloudy with a chance of meatballs '' movie . Am I lacking of sleep or what ? I dream too much and I shall stop procrastinating about all those "don't have" but appreciate all the time I have with my loved ones now because tommorrow is not promised ,who knows what would happen next? Things are just so close to me. Those happenings around me are just so damn real. Anyways , had my breakfast with darling this morning in seapark area then fetched him to work :) supposingly go klang to crave for bakkutteh but we ended up waking up late and darling has to work later , we knew won't be able to make it ,so plan changed ! we shall go eat bakkutteh tonight after darling finish his job ! Looking forward to it .

I miss him already even though it's only been a few hours since I see you & heard your voice

She brighten up my day

Saturday, October 24, 2009

I'm just too frustrated sometimes to revealing out how I feel. Especially when I have no sense of directions, no destination but tons of decisions and insufficient money to spend ! It's so ironic when each day I have to carry a smile when there are so much pressing on my mind and so hard to get ahead. Although my mind is loaded with so much things lately ,but I still feel that life's been good when friends around me are fun & caring . I absolutely enjoy my day with stephanie , I'm so lucky to have her by my side to keep me company while waiting for darling to finish his job which ends around 12.30am ? I would be dead bored and stonning like an idiot if she's not with me that time , both of us went to so many places to tour around , places that I never been before , as in me driving there instead of someone brings me there. Can you imagine a road idiot that has no sense of direction driving in a city , It would definitely be tough if I'm alone , but when stephanie is with me , it's another way round . Guess what I discover today ? I found out that Pudu's area is near petaling street and Jalan imbi is the way to timesquare :) Both of us went Petaling street to have grilled squid / chicken / lala / stingray for our dinner then headed to timesquare and sugaiwang since the event that darling is working is somewhere near sungaiwang , beside sungaiwang to be exact ! all the shops are closing soon by the time we reach there so we bounce to mcdonald for sundae cone icecream , while waiting for darling .

Boasting about your feelings and never know your limits?
Everyone has their own limits not only you. Drill this into your head.

Enjoyable day :)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Life’s getting mundane as each day goes by. its like, there’s no meaning everyday. I feels like im just living for the sake of living. Waiting for the next day, or perhaps, the next weekends . However, when weekends' approaching, I wonder what am I going to do so that it would be memorable weekends that I will never forget. When its a sunday, I dread going to class in the next day , as I know I have to wait another 5days more to weekends. Its like some vicious cycle that never ends. I really need a break to get myself pamper out from home today since it's thursday , if not I'll get insane over my weight and because of that I step on the weight machine countless times, times after my mouth does any chewing and swallowing . So now I have a goal in mind which is DIET , but I'll only start my diet plan from tomorrow onward ! These is good cause I won’t have the chance to spend money on food, afterall what goes in will comes out , what goes up, will come down . Anyways ,I get myself prepare to meet up with Stephanie in Midvalley around 5pm and realised that I actually dont have to be awkward and try to strike up conversations with her even though we havent met for VERY LONG and she's still herself, never fail to make me laugh. After our girl outing session , we went MOS to have some fun ! Supposingly Barcelona but it was close so we bouce to MOS instead . Meet up with Kai suen since he was in sunway area that time ,Winsern and one of his cute pilot friend Yong How , also bump into one of my ex-classmate Nicholas before we headed to MOS . After the night partying we headed to Genting Highland around 3am to chill , reach there about 3.45am , it was freezing cold , super windy and I was shivering crazily that time plus my stomach is growling so we went to KFC to buy my favorite cheesy wedges and MCD to have burger before our chit-chat session starts . Went back around 6.00am in the morning and drive slowly back to KL due to the heavy mist and road were barely visible that time. All of us are exhausted from head to toe after been to so many places & staying awake for so many hours . Though it's only a couple of hours together, it's a nice catch up with them :)

MY BLOG IS ALIVE !

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I need to keep this blog alive , that's the reason why I'm finally blogging right now .Routine everyday is pretty much the same but there's something that's distracting me . Which is my weight, I swear my appetite was growing rapidly and I could see that fat ass me in the mirror. Hopefully I'll be able to adjust back. Maybe after my finals ? Anyways this week is gonna be a burnt out week , practically no free time at all thanks to my awesome final's exam that is starting approximately in 5odd days ! Piles of things to study for finals, but I don't even know where to start . In addition , I would like to thanks Amanda and Kai suen for being my listener these few days , you both do ease my pain away , advice me and take on those negative feelings of mine and redirect them into something more positive when I feel that life has no purpose nowadays. In the past few days I've been feeling so much pain that I cant ever see myself getting better . So I choose to buried them in my heart eventhough this led to so much resentment. I feel like the '' don’t ask don’t tell policy '' have been implemented somehow . Perhaps we have to get a little messed up before we can step up and start with a new beginning & maybe going through all these pain , fear and obstacles , keeps us moving forward in this harsh world.

Although I'm not displaying any hatred right now, it does not mean that I've forgotten everything. Yes, I can somehow forgive but I will not forget.

Accident

Friday, October 9, 2009

Accident occurred on 3PM in klang area right after we had our lunch , somewhere near bukit raja.Luckily non of my beloved classmates that was on board is hurt excpet me , just got cut on my knee area . Because of that all my classmates went SJMC together with me , just to clean up my wound at knee & checkup . Sorry for troubling you guys !

Suppose to stitch back the wound but i'm to scare too do so , so the doctor just use something to stick my skin back together . Hopefully , I won't invovle myself in accident again , I guess i've learn my lesson well enough this time .I'm also glad that my parents are understanding enough to forgive me for destroying that poor murano also million of thanks to my classmates that has accompany me on that day .